I was divorced last year after 9 months of marriage, it was horrible. You don't get over something like this for a long time.
Scream....Cry....Flip out... feel bad for yourself... pull yourself back up and repeat....
I think I actually went crazy at one point and started doing somersaults while screaming.
You may not understand it now, but I'm so glad that it all happened.
Doesn't matter how you feel, or what you think about your situation, it only matters that you keep on taking punches until its will grows tired. This is the break down stage before your new life, its supposed to suck and feel like a cocoon of unbearable pain.
These are championship rounds, you can't think your way through it - you have to embrace the pain and leave it all in the ring so its resolved and you can move on.
Anyway, I feel connected to your story in another way because in my sorrow I started listening to a lot of Pearl Jam, I didn't know why I liked this song so much but thanks to you, now I know the rest of the story.
[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIFU_G8IK9c"]Leatherman by Pearl Jam[/ame]