AmericaOverland
Explorer
Are we just modern gypsies or have too many cave man instincts compared to the general population? I think that may be my case but the family is more tolerant than fully on board. To serve the gypsy instinct I only take jobs that have me travel. I just got back from California on the company dime. I'll hit Texas and New Mexico by the end of the year. I met up with friends at Dumont Sand dunes after a job in Vegas a couple weeks ago. Traveling jobs rule! Now what to do at home? I bought a house a few blocks from a national forest. Still close enough to the city but even closer to the wilderness. We just had a bobcat hunting rabbits in my yard last week. It took a few try's and many years to get to this point but it's easy. Most worry about their home as an investment but a wise man told me to buy a house in the place you want to live instead. Now that's an investment in life.
That is right! We have a need to simply be. As we were intended to be tens of thousands of years ago. To do what we want, when we want.
I never did have kids, never married, never made lots of money, and always worked wage earner jobs, never even owned a house, but I did get a college degree and owned a travel trailer I lived in and eventually lost in 2000. It's a ***** to start over, ain't it? I'm still suffering from that 13 years later.
I know people complain about how bad it is in the rat race, and rightfully so. I am so cavewoman that I could never bring myself to do most of the things you have done in your lives. You may understand the need to wander and simply be, but you would never understand the depth that I feel simply because of how long I went without language (getting to be a familiar topic with me, huh?) and the inability of my parents to figure out I was deaf (thusly the inability to guide me early enough). I went much longer than is allowed under normal circumstances to live simply with just brute guidance (pushing hands away from dangerous objects or pulled from dangerous places like machine shops, streets, and garages). I remember this experience very clearly. A major reason I never achieved the "American Dream" is because I couldn't handle the responsibility and have the patience to learn the skills needed to get up out of wage jobs. I hated school and didn't understand why I needed to go for a very long time. Then I got sucked into the college diploma mill without realizing what I was being set up for. It was only in the last few years that I began to realize the cavewoman attributes and their strength because of my early childhood experience. If I tried to go back to doing full-time jobs paying as much as I'm getting now with little time off from work, I would probably either take my life or abscond on the spot with my things and hide in the woods. In fact, I plan to either change my living arrangement drastically by going to a small town or putting everything in storage and living out of a travel trailer or a vehicle, depending on how fast I fold this year. I have seven months left on my lease. I'm seriously considering the second option. The problem is, I feel trapped and thusly controlled by the fear of it and need to get away from it.
HOUSTON IS TOO MUCH FOR ME! It's too big and there's too many people here! It's difficult to work with a lot of the customers I have to deal with. I have to get out before it's too late. I'm getting very close to saying, "Enough is enough."