Well first off, I had a teacher once tell me to free write, this gift of the Internet that has allowed us to do this, well to me anyway is just that a gift. For over thirty years I wrote nothing but Factual detailed reports that haunted me for over 6 to 7 years post incident. The many attacks, personal and family heart-aches became overwhelming as the assignments wore-on eventually to even wear me down to nothing but a shell with nothing inside.
I still to this day have difficulties blending in with everyday folk, rarely do I intervene as I worry about pissing in another's personal pumpkin patch. So? In effect, I mostly stay home until a resupply mission comes around and I must venture out amongst the droids. When I go out, it is during the week when everyone else is doing their thing at work, and I enjoy the boon-docks. But? It does get lonesome. I am getting older. I can see the inside of the Morgue more clearly than most...
Second, I pay little attention to specifications as most of you do, for me if it works, and I like it, I say in my words to that effect.
Third, My posts I deleted, They were wordy such as you all seem to "Hate so much" and yet? I ask myself, What exactly have I done wrong? If you do not like the author, I would suggest not reading him? Isn't it odd so many under assumed names enjoy poking at others while they sit at home fearing not the knock at their door? Just an observation, my once otherworld within, my daily existence where life had little meaning, no-more no less than a Snickers bar.
And last? For those still with me? My wife, my father, even other's close tell me I need to open up more, relax. How many of you been told to leave the entire property before dinner, after traveling 800 miles, simply because the company thats soon to arrive~well? It wouldn't be fitting I intervene in such engagement. Oh? I gots me lots of that. Here? Where within this forum, I know no-one, yet? So many in here seem so familiar to each other? I am reaching out for a possible expedition, only if? I am wanted there. If not, say so And I will alter my course and heading elsewhere.
There are certain things I know, I've seen, and even survived, as for picking up my bat and my ball, and going home, I'm sure it involves more than Uncle Bills rhetoric... If you notice, I have not written a word in AEV's site in months. PGT, you make me appear as some sort of agitator, I assure you there was a time I agitated well into something few have ever witnessed, but those days are long over for this old boy.
So there it is, my explanation why I am different.
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