I try to make the most of every opportunity and every season of life like most everyone else does. I think the only difference in my perspective may be that I have learned to appreciate those hard times and I have realized that without them life would not be nearly as sweet. Logically, one could ask how we can even know a good experience if we don't have a bad experience!
While I was surviving those desperate times I found a lifestyle which gave me a new kind of peace. While I was struggling I found a new kind of strength. I had realized that I felt more alive just living for what I NEEDED than I ever did living for what I believed I wanted. It was during that summer after the second surgery that I realized how much I preferred to live in a tent and to let the current of life cary me to my destination than chasing a goal that only lead me to more work and less freedom; all to live somewhere and some way that someone else decided was "the right way"!
I also realized how therapeutic riding was for me, and I knew that it was something I needed for my own mental wellbeing! Even renting the room just showed me that I was still just living out of luggage! So, the search was on.
I needed to find a bike which would be able to cary me wherever I felt I needed to roam. It would need to cary everything I needed and owned. It would need to be super dependable and capable. Most of all, it needed to be inexpensive! I combed the ads on this forum and CraigsList and another forum I used to frequent but found very few in budget. The ones I did find were scooped up before I could even get a ride out to see them.