Wow!!! Ive been reading the forums here for about a month. drooling over all the nice rigs, trailers, expeditions and have been extremely jealous. I finally got the nerve to post here
I stumbled across this topic and was blown away! I had no idea that people felt the same as I do.
Ive always been very laid back easy going, quick to laugh and have fun. I was also raised in the John Wayne style, "suck it up your ok" But over the years last 8-10 i have become ALOT more serious. Was in the Oregon Army Nat. Guard went on a deployment. Came back and that is where things started to change. I didn't know what was changing or why but things were different. Started drinking more than I should have. then Sept. 22, 2007 I was in a pretty bad car accident http://expeditionportal.com/forum/showthread.php?t=15586 ( see link ) and all of my photos http://s173.photobucket.com/albums/w43/Johnclark_2007/ injury wise I was pretty worked over, almost lost my right foot got some painful hardware in there now, broke my back L1 and L2, slight tear in the right rotator cuff, nerve dmg from the seat belt on my left thigh, nerve dmg/ numbness bad weakness on my left arm. all of those hopefully will heal up. I really hope so, but got a nagging feeling that ill have to endure something (pain, numbness etc etc) for the rest of my life but the thing that has come to light in the last few months was the TBI = Traumatic Brain Injury.
http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/tbi/tbi.htm
I had no idea that it was there,, i knew i got bonked in the head pretty good but wow, it explains alot. All of those symptoms listed on the site above yes I have them still.
I was unconscious about 45 mins, I came to, and called my boss to send help (we work alone for 12 hours at night) took about 1/2 hour for paramedics to show up, (secure facility and they had to find me (850 acres) another 45 minutes for the EMT's to get me out, my good* foot was pinned under the brake pedal.
spent 7 days in the hospital, then about a week after being home my sleep started to get bad, nightmares just "not tired" (of course im still exhausted) and certain situations I get the feeling of being "trapped" I find i push my way out (crowded areas) always looking for a exit. One of the many docs ive seen that I defiantly have PTSD and I know for a fact that I have some form of depression. haven't seen a doc for that yet, they want to take 1 thing at a time injury wise.
Ive been a Mr. mom since my daughter was born. longest I was away from her is when I went to Japan for 2 weeks. She is my life, and another reason why I don't want to take a sleeping aid. (too groggy to wake up)
I want to say thank you to all of you, I know im very new here, but thanks for reading it does help to talk about it. and everyone that has posted here YOUR NOT ALONE! I thought I was, but after reading this topic I know im not!
boy ive read and reread this post even before I "posted" it and if i ramble on or change subjects please forgive me. My "head" is kinda weird. I am at the point where I know there is probably alot more to tell / get off my chest but the thoughts in the ole noggin seem to be a bit scrambled tonite. Ill try and post more tomorrow.
I stumbled across this topic and was blown away! I had no idea that people felt the same as I do.
Ive always been very laid back easy going, quick to laugh and have fun. I was also raised in the John Wayne style, "suck it up your ok" But over the years last 8-10 i have become ALOT more serious. Was in the Oregon Army Nat. Guard went on a deployment. Came back and that is where things started to change. I didn't know what was changing or why but things were different. Started drinking more than I should have. then Sept. 22, 2007 I was in a pretty bad car accident http://expeditionportal.com/forum/showthread.php?t=15586 ( see link ) and all of my photos http://s173.photobucket.com/albums/w43/Johnclark_2007/ injury wise I was pretty worked over, almost lost my right foot got some painful hardware in there now, broke my back L1 and L2, slight tear in the right rotator cuff, nerve dmg from the seat belt on my left thigh, nerve dmg/ numbness bad weakness on my left arm. all of those hopefully will heal up. I really hope so, but got a nagging feeling that ill have to endure something (pain, numbness etc etc) for the rest of my life but the thing that has come to light in the last few months was the TBI = Traumatic Brain Injury.
http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/tbi/tbi.htm
I had no idea that it was there,, i knew i got bonked in the head pretty good but wow, it explains alot. All of those symptoms listed on the site above yes I have them still.
I was unconscious about 45 mins, I came to, and called my boss to send help (we work alone for 12 hours at night) took about 1/2 hour for paramedics to show up, (secure facility and they had to find me (850 acres) another 45 minutes for the EMT's to get me out, my good* foot was pinned under the brake pedal.
spent 7 days in the hospital, then about a week after being home my sleep started to get bad, nightmares just "not tired" (of course im still exhausted) and certain situations I get the feeling of being "trapped" I find i push my way out (crowded areas) always looking for a exit. One of the many docs ive seen that I defiantly have PTSD and I know for a fact that I have some form of depression. haven't seen a doc for that yet, they want to take 1 thing at a time injury wise.
Ive been a Mr. mom since my daughter was born. longest I was away from her is when I went to Japan for 2 weeks. She is my life, and another reason why I don't want to take a sleeping aid. (too groggy to wake up)
I want to say thank you to all of you, I know im very new here, but thanks for reading it does help to talk about it. and everyone that has posted here YOUR NOT ALONE! I thought I was, but after reading this topic I know im not!
boy ive read and reread this post even before I "posted" it and if i ramble on or change subjects please forgive me. My "head" is kinda weird. I am at the point where I know there is probably alot more to tell / get off my chest but the thoughts in the ole noggin seem to be a bit scrambled tonite. Ill try and post more tomorrow.
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